Writing

I just watched a horrible movie. The horrible movie that I have just watched was Gentleman Broncos. I was not by any means expecting a great film, but I did not expect something THAT bad. Oh, well. Perhaps it's because I have an idea for a fantasy novel. Cheesy, I know right? But I had mapped it all out once in the summer when I didn't have anything else to do as a creative outlet. Later, I wrote a rough version of the first chapter. I never really understood how detailed some writers were until that day. And I'm hoping that if I ever do write a book, I will write one where people will be able to have their imaginations go wild. Like my mind, when I was younger in Star Wars, or Lord of the Rings. And although I had nightmares of Gollum when I was younger, I do believe that it helped my imagination. Terrified, yes. Horrible, yes. But could I refrain from unbridled curiosity? Not a chance.

It's little things like that that make me want to be a writer. I was influenced so much, as I'm sure all of us are, by the things that I read, and I'm gonna throw in here, things that I heard and watched as well. I remember some of my earliest memories is watching the opera, or listening to Peter and the Wolf. I remember it was always kind of a special treat to do those kinda things, because my other siblings really didn't care for it. So here is 4 year old me, listening to Peter and the Wolf. When I was older, when I was able to read, I read stuff like the Hobbit, and stuff like that. Not what you'd call nonfiction, but still a great read. Looking back, I can't recall a lot of the books that I've read, and I need to form a list. I'm starting to have a lot of free time, and I'd love to sit and read for a spell. Who wouldn't?

I took a girl out a couple weeks ago who didn't learn to read til she was around 16 years old. That is unnerving. Perplexing. Mindbottling. You know, like putting your mind, in a bottle. My life was greatly influenced by the arts... by books, theatre, music... and to not be able to partake in any of that before I was sixteen?! Nope. Couldn't do it. Heck there are essays I remember that I wrote when I was thirteen that changed my entire confidence level. Writing is important in my life.

I will not lie when I say that I think sadly, that I'm in a very scary part of my writing. Its in its infancy. No, it's even before that, I have to create something whole before I can say that it's my mental baby. Something that I can hand to someone and say, I wrote this, and take pride in it. Not an assignment, but something that I had just written on my own, and worth something. My professor talks of writing or ideas as your mental baby, and ain't nobody wanna hear that their baby is ugly. Hmph.